Wow!!!

Tonight was a better night.

First. I got some sleep. Which was greatly helpful.

Second I had several conversations with people that helped.

And third, all of your comments were valid.

I should start by saying last night I was venting. LOUDLY. VERY. VERY. LOUDLY.

The one thing I’ve known, more than anything about being overworked is that I have no one to vent to. I have no other adult in the room.

I don’t vent to Chef because he’s busier than I am, more overworked than I am, and I don’t want to bog him down with the details of Front of House unless it concerns him.

I don’t have another manager to vent to. My ventee, left in April leaving a bigger void than he knows.

I also don’t have Adam, as he’s in bed by the time I get home and we literally barely see each other from Wednesday to Tuesday. I saw him for about 5 minutes tonight, and I try not to dump on him as he’s going to sleep.

I try, sometimes unsuccessfully to not involve my employees with my frustrations. It makes me feel like a parent talking about my spouse to a child.

Last night was hard.

I continually get beat up at work. In fact, I had so much anxiety at the start of my shift after the bullshit conversation about the two 5 tops.

I watch as my staff continually struggles to keep up with little things.

And then at the end of the night, chef was frustrated with me and let me know.

Then to finish it, I go outside and all of the patio tables have been cleared of their set ups even though there is a table that hasn’t even ordered yet.

I was just done!!!!!

So I came home and vented to all of you.

Unfortunately, many of my staff read this. And I managed to upset a few of them. Of course, none of this was directed at them, but once again I felt like a bad parent who was taking their frustration with their work life out on their children.

I did damage control and they all understood. But it doesn’t make it right.

So I’d also like to apologize to them publicly.

Meanwhile, I spoke to Chef today and asked him not to be so discouraging at the end of the night. He heard me and apologized.

We also chatted about the business, the services we are doing, the numbers we are doing. It felt great. He also gave me several amazing compliments which felt great. The best being that although I make decisions he might not make he knows I’m making them with the business in mind not my own personal needs in mind. Which is very true.

I also had some advice given to me which I appreciated it.

From you.

But also, Adam reminded me that I needed to focus on the big picture and stop being bogged down with the little stuff.

Jen reminded me that our guests don’t even notice for the most part. And as long as they don’t care, yes keep working on improving things but don’t get so stressed out.

So, I’m sipping a bourbon. Writing. And much calmer tonight.

Thanks for listening.