I’d like to speak to the manager!!!

It’s my least favorite part of the day.

It’s 3:20.

We turned off the lights an hour ago.

You can set your watch and 30 minutes after lights out Adam is asleep. Regardless of how stressful his job is, the drama in his personal life, or if he is in physical pain.

Sleep is his friend.

I know I’ve written of this, but the not sleeping is the worst part of knee surgery. Worse than the pain. Worse than the physical therapy. Almost worse than the pain before surgery.

Lots of you have provided suggestions. I’ve been hesitant to mix things with the pain meds.

I stopped taking them four days ago, as a friend told me they gave her insomnia.

Fast forward.

Still can’t sleep.

I can fall asleep watching tv.

I can be so exhausted I can’t hold my head up.

I can feel the sleepy as I climb into bed.

But the minute the light is off I’m wide awake.

Yesterday was three weeks since my surgery. And I’ve watched the sun come up too many times to count since then.

Eventually, around 7:30 or 8:00 sleep will find me. And I’ll sleep until 3:00 or 4:00.

I’ll have been in bed for forever for what seems like 5 minutes of sleep.

I can’t sustain this. I’m tired. I’m depressed. The time change is the worst. I want. I need. I have to sleep.

Tomorrow I’m venturing out to buy the stuff. The sleep aids. The melitonin. The gummies.

I want to turn out the light.

Kiss my boyfriend.

And fall asleep.